*sigh~~~*

(readers discretion advise..this is my rant though..)

Mr. H decided to move the new lab in KL, instead of Penang

so there goes my job opportunity..*slump*sigh~~~*

i am hopeful,maybe too hopeful

kind of sad really. As i know moving to my 4th year here as a contract research assistant

nothing move my adrenaline here. bored lame and mundane routine (thats why i do blog time kerja..i feel really bersalah..but what can i do. this is the only way that motivate me to wake up in the morning and move my ass to work..yes blog motivate to go to work..wahahaha..weh,korang jangan tiru saya)

ntahla. I did jobstreet,tapi tade rezeki

SPA ntah berapa kali apply

erecruit by usm sekarang pun susah nak masuk pasal apex thingy

saya bukan pekerja program khidmat singkat (PKS)

saya di upah oleh bos saya,melalui sebuah syarikat swasta (saya keje tempat kerajaan)

dimana bos saya masuk kan duit kat syarikat tu,so syarikat tu boleh bayar gaji saya

dengan cara itu,saya boleh dapat kwsp.

try explaining that kalau nak buat credit card atau loan whatsoever (tu pun kalau diorang paham)

"u sebenarnye kerja dengan syarikat Y atau degan n*fi*h?"

"dengan n*fi*h tapi melalui syarikat y"

"how leh?i dont understand"

"me neither..hahahaha"

"tapi ada pay slip kan?"

"ada"

"well,taht will do"

tiring like hell

i dont know. the motivation working here is long gone.

on why i still work,tak berenti saje..pasal i still have to pay the car,some bill, i cant let husband working alone u see. i really want to be a WAHM. but i just cant. kenot.

just maybe if i look at the brighter sight

maybe i didnt get any new job

so i can sew all my NCs and sell it so i can get extra income

gaji cukup makan is never fun u see

u have to budget just about everything. i never had the fun to shop on impulse.

everytime i want to buy something, i have to think twice sometime more than that

why life sometime can be so difficult like this.

i know im not yet in the program bersamamu TV3

i know i have to bersyukur all the little things that i have

but,can i have just a little bit more

i just want a new job with better paycheck so i dont have to work my ass off to sew till late night just to have that extra income

i gave up already.

p/s::no,dont ask me to join mlm. not interested. i still want to work in a lab,so i can perasan like i am Hodges in CSI vegas.