::ziTs::

stupid zit...

stupid fats...

im trying for moths to sheds these stupid fats...arghh!!

i hate u,fats!!ugly stupid fats

ugly stupid zit

arghh..arghh

darn it...its only 2 weeks away

stupid fats!

stupid zit!

arghh!!

::when i was 15::

when i was 15

i ask myself

what would happen when i am 24

what would become of me

will i have a good job

will i have a lucrative amount of money

do i have boyfriend

do i look pretty

questions without answers

till nine years later

i have my anwers

remembering all those days

im finally 24.

*alHamduLilLah*

::E&O::

En.Anas brought me to E&O last Saturday

dream came true..*cry*

had dinner for two,with spectacular view of the south china sea,with sea breeze
(the first ever romantic dinner for my birthday..the FIRST)

only you and me

pure joy

En.Anas..thank you so much for all this,i am happy.I am

and thank you for the 18 carat white gold ring with 35 carat diomands too.

what can i say more

LoVe u sayang

*BluSH*

::24::

i hit the number 24

this coming saturday

im old..(am i?)

will be getting hitched less than a month..(insyaAllah..)

will be here in Penang..

hopefully not alone

and yes,i wish for Samsung U600 because my N70 rosak already

..heheh

::menyamPah::

ada sorang perempuan,saya tak pernah jumpe dia

tak pernah kenal(memang tak ingin ponn...wekk wekk)

dia itu sangat melugai kan hati saya serta fikiran

lantas membelengu jiwa..(apsal ntah...tapi saya tak pernah kenal,tak pernah jumpa pon)

dia tak membelengu jiwa saya...pasal saya lagi terer dan pandai dan comel..(tambah bagi sedap sikit)

tapi kesian kat dia..

kerana dia tak belajar...

cara melupakan

kesian pada dia..

sungguh saya tak tipu

saya cube tolong dia,tapi apa2 pun saya doa kat dia

untuk dia,perempuan itu yang saya tak kenal::selamat semuanya...

::long Way to Go::

my hand hurts...

i punch several things yesterday.my steering wheel,the wall next to the staircase

it hurts like hell..

yes..im fine.

totally.

::heAl me::

i was busy mending my broken heart..for the past few years of my life,im busily mending it,until it look like a heart again

im not a person that easily pours my inner feeling and inner thought to somebody else,because i rarely have trust in people..

people tend to lie and so am i

its not that im not telling,i am ok with anything or everybody

i keep my comments,my sarcastic comments,my most hated things on someone up to myself

i rarely share it up

just because people hate me,and tell me directly that they hate me for thousandth of reason,doesnt mean i didnt have things for them..

i have fall,hurt,disgrace,humiliated time and time again

im muse

in my inner thought,im safe

im not perfect so does YOU

::do i have Friend::

i have been a nomad since i was a kid..well not literally

i have 3 different secondary school,and 3 different high schools

people assume i have loads of friends

yes....i have..loads of them

but none was real close to me

a friend that really know what my deepest,darkest secret..

maybe some of friends experienced happy moment with me,nontheless..

but,im in need a friend who i can always turn to

i have Mr.Brown though..he is my stuffed grizzly bear

he listen to me,i told him everything..i cried and laugh with him

it soothes me every night before i shut my peepers

but the fact is,he is not even alive!

well,at least i have him around..

and yes im 24 years old and am getting married..*sigh

::he sTab my heart::

he stab my heart and i like it...

i ve been in all the path the i never intended to be,till i come and met him

for all the path that are twisted and turn,he make it out straight

i have been bruised,hurt..he come and took me out from all of my sorrow night

painful as i was,broken wing and heartache..

he pick me up from the ashes i always wanted to forget..

(okie dokie...i have enuff merepeking..hahah..i have fun...)